“We pass through the present with our eyes blindfolded. We are permitted merely to sense and guess at what we are actually experiencing. Only later when the cloth is untied can we glance at the past and find out what we have experienced and what meaning it has.”
– Milan Kundera, Laughable Laughs
Hello 2017, hello to a new start! I know this is a bit late but I hope you had a very Merry Christmas and that the New Year has treated you well with positive thoughts for a fabulous year ahead.
Again, I know I am now more than a week late in writing this, but my family and friends have truly made sure that I would be 100% present with them in the last few days. Being present with them was something I needed. I’ve ended the year and began the new one with big period of transition. For a long time I’ve been feeling like I was lost from universe I want to be in. So change it is. It’s daunting but also exciting and a great way to start the new year.
Last year was full of ups and downs, goods and bads, laughter and tears. From the hardships and falls I learnt many lessons too. But here I’ll focus on the goods, as an exercise of gratitude. Here’s my little retrospection from the year that just ended.
Perhaps I was running away from something, or running towards something. I had set backs, usually in the form of flu, which would stop me running for a week or a few. A few years ago, I used to think that I was condemned to forever be a non-runner. I was always making new years resolutions to run. This year I made it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still hard on me but I can proudly say that I’ve ran 10km, ran in freezing -1ºC temperature, and have converted myself from a non-runner to a runner.
Practice makes perfect. Just do it. (No I was not paid by Nike to say that). Don’t think you’re too tired or busy. Just run a little, at your own pace, regularly. When hurdles arrive, jump past them. All of a sudden you’ll realise you’ve made it. Now when people ask what sports I do, I can also say: I run.
I finished playing two piano pieces by Rachmaninoff, plus a few other random pieces. I realised that, even though I still adore and play my beloved Chopin, my piano style has evolved to something different, I guess something more me.
Again, practice makes perfect. In fact, I probably sweated more over Rachmaninoff than over running. Also, we evolve. Strive to learn more, to bring more beauty into the world, to be a better version of yourself.
Even though Mr H. and I only travelled within Spain and France, we saw some of the most beautiful sceneries ever. We got to see friends and family, and met some other nice people along the way. We ate delicious food and probably had way too much cheese. We drank amazing wines and Belgian beers. We walked and walked and walked. We ran. We paddle surfed to an island with a castle. We stayed in a farm. Maybe it’s a symptom of getting older, but we realised we prefer the calmness of tiny towns and nature, than the craziness of big cities.
I am so grateful for the moments we spent together in our travels. Live the present. Enjoy the amazing scene in front of you. Enjoy the person you are sharing it with.
Resolutions for 2017
1. Read more. I used to go through dozens of books in no time before. Somehow I neglected that in the last few years. This year I’ll read more.
2. Speak more French. Sure I can survive simple -and sometimes not so simple- conversations. But I’ll learn more French and try to perfect it.
3. Be present. Multitask less. Dedicate my mind to what I’m doing. Dedicate my being to the person I’m with.
With all that said and done, those are my simple resolutions for this year. I don’t like going overboard with resolutions because I don’t want to break them. In a chat with some of my blogging lady friends, the subject of new year’s resolutions vs. goals came up. Above are my resolutions. My goals are many and too profound and personal to write here, due to a (unfounded, silly, superstitious) fear of failure. I hope to achieve them, and I hope you achieve yours too. Wishing you a wonderful year ahead!